God has given me more days to live and I'm just taking it day by day with my husband. My dad's also been amazing by my side each day and I need to start trusting him more as well. I forget to acknowledge how much this man means the world to me. I don't know what God has plan for me but I know he's here every step of the way and he will heal me. I just need to start trusting him because I've lost my mind along the way and I completely forget why I'm living it day by day. I need to go back to reality and face that I'm still living. I need to live and thank every single day that I'm still breathing. I just need to trust. I'm getting myself together again and get back to reality. I'll be doing this naturopathy which I needed from the very first beginning. I will start working on it next week and get my self all together again. Best believe, I'm a tough little cookie. haha I try!
To be honest, I had so much things going on with my life that I needed to get away and by doing so, I needed to get out of reality. I didn't know how but I needed to be confused. I was hurt because there was so many prayers and I was overwhelmed by it. I didn't know how to be strong anymore. I wanted to move on with my life and I felt very safe when I was roaming around the hospital thinking that I need to leave. I felt like God was there with me throughout everything but he didn't want to let me go because I felt like Peter keeps comings back to my life and kept me very safe by telling me how much he wants to take me to see the world. I was anxious and I felt like I had Alzheimer's or if this is even reality? I didn't want to know any of my loved ones because they are just full of hope and they need to realize I will be gone. I am no longer here. I couldn't do it anymore.. I just wanted to give it up all. I was ready to go... when I told myself, I wanted to leave with a bang, I didn't know what I wish for.. I wanted a nice funeral, It was ready. I was ready... When they told me I only have a few hours to live, I was ready. I needed to go. I just couldn't do it anymore.
Once again,
Videography Credit to Ferdi Flancia Films, http://ferdiflanciafilms.com/.
I can't say thank you enough for this amazing videography. He worked all day and surpassed our expectations. My husband and I could not stop watching the video without smiling, it's absolutely perfect!
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Dear Russel & Marian,
I sincerely want to dedicate this blog because you have made a difference in my life. Thank you for listening to my story and your recent generous gift of $5000 USD for my natural treatments that I will be undergoing for the next few months. Your generosity has given me the ability to seek more natural treatments that I didn't think was possible and another chance to fight this cancer
Words cannot express how I feel! You have given me hope and courage to fight this battle! My family and I will always be forever grateful. God Bless!
I can't believe it has been almost 2 weeks that I've been released from the hospital and it has been an incredible journey so far. I got so many surprises from my loved ones who came from different places to throw so many unforgettable moments that I will forever cherish.
My Surprise Bachelorette Party At The Grey Eagle Casino Resort, https://www.greyeagleresortandcasino.ca/ who took care of us girls throughout the night without any complications. Big Shout Out to Matt, Director of Sales & Marketing for giving us an incredible night & Ernie, Managers at the Casino who also made us feel comfortable!
First and foremost, I want thank you for all the donations that I've received on my "Go Fund Me!" I have no words to describe how thankful I am! I was only praying for a couple of weeks of treatments but with this amount, I’ve been given an opportunity to look forward to other treatments and also, given me hope for the future. You have made a real difference in my life! I want to thank my friends and family who has been showing support with their thoughts and prayers. I went through all your messages and it really touches me from the bottom of my heart. I would also love to thank all the anonymous donors! You’re generosity has not gone unnoticed and I pray that God will bless you in your life. I also want to thank all the people who have not known me personally or who have met me through a mutual friend that donated and/or contacted me. It inspires me so much knowing that this world is filled with people that are so caring and compassionate. I also want to thank everyone who have shared this fundraising page, my blog and to all who shared my story on CTV news. God Bless!
Go Fund Me: https://www.gofundme.com/trvlbeauty
Go Fund Me: https://www.gofundme.com/trvlbeauty
Today's my second treatment. I am planning to do it 3X per week as per Dr. Matt from The Pyatt Health Centre, http://www.pyatthealth.com/ suggested. I was only going to do "Hyperthermia Therapy with IV Vitamin C" once per week which cost 450$ per session but now, with the money that I've receive, I can do 3X per week and will be adding another treatment such as IV DCA injections which will cost 40 - 80$ depending how much dosage I can take. He definitely saw an improvement compare to my first visit where I was practically beaten up. He said I looked a lot better!
From the bottom of our hearts, thank you so much for a wonderful memory of our day that will last forever in this beautiful video of my early 26th birthday celebration. This had me in tears!
Videography Credit to Ferdi Flancia Films, http://ferdiflanciafilms.com/.
I don't even know where to begin. I am at loss for words. I can't thank enough.
Wishing Well Wedding and Event Foundation - http://wishingwellfoundation.ca/ have granted my wish to celebrate my early 26th birthday and my favourite holiday.
Deeply grateful for:
Lesley Plumley, Founder and President of Wishing Well Wedding and Event Foundation.
Lynnette Macdonald, Vice President of Wishing Well Wedding and Event Foundation.
My family and I highly appreciate your generosity! Words can't describe how sincerely thankful we are for all your help. You are truly a blessing in this community.
Olivia Kennedy, http://lovecrushweddings.com/ who executed the event and made it ALL happen.
I can't sleep... and I don't even know how to get my thoughts all together. It's almost been a week since I've been released from the hospital. I've been living every moment with my loved ones and taking it all day by day. I've been receiving so many supports from so many people especially now more than ever. I've been given so much hope and I can't stop fighting now.
Although, last night with all the social media bombarding me, I couldn't help but breakdown... so many supports and prayers but I just felt like I'm one step behind again... I couldn't help but think, God, what does this all mean? What are you trying to show me? Are you giving me a chance to live? Am I in denial of what's happening to me? I'm walking with him with so many hopes but I'm scared this can end so quick. I see my loved ones with so much happiness but I'm scared, I'm so scared for them. I'm holding on to you God but I need answers...
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